for black boys… (When The Rage is Never Ending

We build worlds for those who will never wake up to see them. We mourn the innocence lost and the lives we never got to live. for black boys…

For your birthday I made you words cause words are everlasting. Even when the memories aren’t. The past is always present. And our essence never ends. Even tho I once thought about trying to end mine

the rage is never ending…

Grief never goes away as much as you learn to make space for what you want in your life.

The life I lived as a child is so different from the one I live now. It’s almost like two different people.

And at a certain point you have to make a choice not to let the pain destroy you. Or let the pain become you.

And at times it feels like becoming the pain is the only option.

When you left she put her hand on my face as I cried and said

“we’ll die together”

Forever’s a long time when you spent ten years with ideations of suicide

When you spent ten years crying. And I learned when the pity ends, When the fetishization ends, When the tokenization ends. There’s nothing…

Just you. And you have to make the life you want to live. The life you want to be remembered for.

I think about you when I don’t want to think

I fight when I dont want to fight

And I’ve cried til the tears felt cold on my face

maybe we’re all in jail

sunshine on my skin reminds me I’m still real.

These words remind me I’m still part of you

The closest to a father I ever knew

If sky is the limit

May future generations see the bottom as the moon

May black rage and black graves be replaced by love that monsoons

For your birthday I hope mom got you a fitted

When I pray he kept you and her close I hope that he listened

When I die I hope I feel I had a life worth living.

I don’t want peace

From Rikers to Palestine

I wish for everyone to be free

And if I die tonight may I live in everyone who loves me’s dream

And that’s why I made you this

See words are neverending just like you

Happy Birthday

“You know the shit don’t stop
Til the cris don’t pop and you have to kill a nigga and your wrist won’t lock”-Hov

“Even tho what we do is wrong”- Freeway

“If you really want it it’s all for you. If you really need it it’s all for you”- Janet Jackson

“Shouldn’t I realize you’re the highest of the high if you don’t know then I’ll say it so don’t ever wonder”- Maxwell